parallel dementia

Have you seen my face?
once reflected in mirrors passed
I used to know it well

Days go by without recognition
who looks back at me?
this perplexing re-occurrence

Dance you fool!
life takes your legs when you least expect
stop and stare again, is this your game?

Gifts can come at such high cost.

Reveal yourself!
I grasped at life, it fought me well
always ahead of it, yet never catching up

At last it has happened?
I have abandoned myself
seek me not, myself knows not I

The flowing drapes, they conceal it well
don't tell the couch what the chair said
never chastise a pillow, or was it?

I see the depth of my loss in others eyes
my drowning was not so visible before
perhaps...no, I see it now....

WHO'S THERE!?!

Darkness be damned, I see you there
I know your face, I know MY face
why am I standing so far from myself?

Rivers of tears dampen my spirit
not mine, but theirs...them...
mocked me thinking I did not know, look now!

Was I wrong?

Surely, they weep in love...thank God for that.

Being lost for so long, the path brings reprieve
my words known only to me, alas farewell
my journey is almost done

Have you seen my face?

I sat in darkness while you made light
I laid alone while you sat together
I stared in whitened halls while you looked yet never saw
I was discarded when you saw no more use

Now, I wait, for their is one
knows my face and holds it in His hands
when I see Him, I will finally see myself again
for the first time.


-J.G. Smith (07/30/05)